Thursday, January 6, 2011
I Miss You Already
How does one celebrate the life of a best friend? This is question that has tugged at my heart all week. I wasn't going to post anything about this but then I wanted to share and write down how much the love of an animal can be part of one's life. Perhaps the sharing is the way to celebrate.
On Monday my cat Linus passed away after a very short battle with cancer. I could never say Linus was just a cat. He was a best friend. He was and always will be one of my children. I brought him home from the animal shelter when he was almost 7 weeks old. That was 17 years ago. In human years that is well into the 90's. Over the past few days I have been struggling with emotions as I have been reflecting on all that has transpired in 17 years and realizing how much one animal that I loved played such a huge part in my life, always there to help keep a smile on my face. Time does go way to fast.
Over the past 17 years I got divorced, almost lost my house because I could not afford it after just having graduated from college and being newly divorced; started teaching 17 years ago; got my Master's Degree; had 3 Amish barns built; collected many farm animals; raised 4 Newfoundlands who have all passed away; struggled to pay bills; and in all of these highs and lows, Linus was the one constant in my life. He made me laugh, he gave me a shoulder to cry on, he sat on my lap or rested on my shoulder.
He was always there.
I can't remember him ever not being in the house. He has always been there, with me, for me. For 17 years Linus has been part of my life. There are so many things I miss about him.
I miss sharing my milk and cookies with you before bedtime.
I miss scolding you for eating a bird when you know I fed you Fancy Feast cuz you were my favorite.
I miss you sneaking on my Mac'n Cheese with your paw.
I miss having you sit on my lap when I grade papers.
I miss forgetting to turn off the water in the sink after you had a drink.
I miss you locking up the keyboard on my laptop when you walked across it.
I miss walking around the yard at night with a flashlight looking for you
cuz you were out after kitty curfew.
I miss you spilling my cereal on Sunday morning because you wanted the milk.
I miss you tripping me when I open the front door when I come home from school.
I miss you constantly jumping through the screen door on the porch 5 minutes after I fixed it.
I miss you meowing at me because I slept in and your breakfast was late.
I miss our arguements on why you can't go outside.
I miss laughing at you sitting at the front door 5 minutes after I did finally let you out
because I told you it was cold and you didn't believe me.
I miss picking you up and dancing with you to my favorite songs.
I miss you sleeping next to me on cold winter nights.
I miss our Eskimo kisses everyday.
I miss everything about you Linus.
I know your in a better place now, catching up with the Newfies, and playing with Tasha.
One day you and I will share a glass of milk again. Until then, just remember I love you.