Sunday, September 28, 2008

Saddness in the Autumn air

Friday evening Autumn was not feeling well as she had a temp. of 104.8. & she was not eating. I gave her a penicillan shot & kept an eye on her. Saturday morning the temp had come down a bit but still I decided to take her to the vet. We started with a Bose shot & SMZ & we ran a fecal which was negative. Saturday evening her temp was still high at 104.5 & I repeated the pen shot. I have given all my lambs 3 CDT shots already.
She was just so sad yesterday esp. her eyes.

My beautiful Autumn passed away last night & I am crying right now because I miss her so much already. She was beginning to trust me & now I have let her down.
11:30 am....After my intitial shock, I could not go on without knowing what happened. Autumn was in a pen with her twin brother & my youngest ram lamb plus both moms (these were the youngest of all the babies born this summer). I only let them out when I was home to eat grass & run around. I was very fortunate to be able to go to the vet. this morning & have a necoprsy done which I did stay to watch. The first indication that something was wrong was when the doctor said there was way too much stomach fluid in her abdominal cavet. She found a tear in her intestinal lining that most likely started out very small and got bigger over a period of time which lead to the fluid becoming toxic in her system. She said this was a very freak incident, one that she has rarely ever seen in sheep/goats. There was nothing I could have done. The only question, one that will never be answered is, how did she get the tear? A question that will pull at my heart for a long time. I believe the doctor called this "peritonitis", but I am not 100% sure. I love my animals with all my heart & I put so much into this & it just hurts so much when something like this happens. I know my hobby farm will never be perfect but I try. And loosing a lamb as beautiful as Autumn just makes my heart ache. In all only 3 months she become such a big part of my life.

14 comments:

Nancy K. said...

Oh, Kristi ~ I am SO sorry for your loss. What a beauty your little Autumn was! My heart is crying for you.

Susan said...

Kristi - I'm so sorry. Knowing how you are with your 4-legged kids I know Autumn passed not feeling let down but, knowing she was loved, cared for, and important in her short time here. Give yourself a hug,
Susan

Pat in east TN said...

I'm so sorry Kristi, but you did everything you could as soon as you saw she wasn't feeling well. Just keep in mind the good life she had with you.

Christy said...

I'm so sorry! Sometimes farming is so heartbreaking.

Garrett808 said...

Wow. Not what I was expecting to read this morning. Kristi I am SO sorry. I lost my softest, favorite colored, ewe this year to bloat...and I was too busy to notice her...and I know she could have been saved. .....I'm still kicking myself over it...Farming is never easy.

Big hugs!

Kara said...

Oh Kristi - I am so sorry. Autumn was such uniquely beautiful lamb. I have to agree that she knew that she was loved and you are taking excellent care of your critters. It is so frustrating that despite doing everything we do, freak things still can happen. Hugs!

Tammy said...

Kristi,
I'm very sorry to hear about Autumn. I know how devastating that can be. Especially when they are so young and seemingly healthy. There is no way to ever know what caused the initial tear. I am glad you were able to get to a vet who would do a necropsy on her. It doesn't lessen the heartache, but at least you know it wasn't something you could have prevented. Take care of yourself.
Tammy

Rayna said...

Sorry to hear about your little girl...it's always hard to lose them. Lost my favorite ram last year, but luckily I have his son who is just like him in every aspect of personality(Not quite color lol). You did everything right, sometimes nature is just cruel. *hugs*

melanie said...

What an awful blow to a very loving shepherd...it is not a reflection of your quality of care, but of the precarious balance of nature and how even the best of us cannot control for everything.

Tracey said...

Kristi,
I am so terribly sorry to hear about Autumn. I have tears in my eyes writing this and my heart is aching for you. You did not let her down, you did all you could and I am sure she knows that.
~~BIG HUGS AND PRAYERS ARE BEING SENT TO YOU~~
Tracey
By the way, you are right it is called peritonitis (I work in the medical field)

Adventure girl wanna be said...

I am so sorry! That is so sad and hard to take!

Michelle at Boulderneigh said...

Cyberhugs from me, too; we get so attached, and they leave too quickly -- even if they live a full lifespan!

Pamela said...

I am so very, very sorry to hear about lovely little Autumn. As everyone has said, I hope you can find a little comfort in knowing you did all that you could for her. Such a beautiful little lamb. Sometimes farming is not fun at all.

I need orange said...

I'm so sorry for your loss.

No matter how long we have to share with them, it is never enough.